Hi!

I think you have to untangle the concepts of “existence” versus “experience”.

In my understanding, the ONLY two things which exist is NOTHING and EVERYTHING which are one and the same, a bit like the “ying and yang”. I can’t go too much into detail here, I’ve written at great lengths about this, but simply put, all that EXISTS is zero (absolute nothingness/void) and infinity (absolute everythingness). That is, the true state of the Universe is a form of infinitely fast “flickering” between everything in the form of vibrations and nothing. And the reason why it flickers between the two states is because for every vibration, if it exists, there is necessarily a vibration of opposite phase (what we call “anti particles” or for each “positive” energy you have “negative” energy), and since infinity is infinite in all of it’s aspects, it also experiences itself infinitely fast (instantaneously). Do the experiment on your own: take any sound, any music on your computer, put it into an audio editing software, duplicate it, reverse the phase of one of the files, and press “play”. What you get is… NOTHING, silence.

The way you get something from nothing is a bit more complex: lets just say that quantum fluctuations is a good way to represent the inherent “tension” of nothingness, or what happens when nothing and nothing try to occupy the same “space” and have to decide whether there are TWO nothings or just one nothing. That “tension” distorts “nothing” into a vibratory state and that cycles back on itself infinitely fast.

Now, I have defined existence as those two states.

We, on the other hand, live in the world of experience. That is, nothing and everything CANNOT experience themselves as what they ARE. It’s impossible to experience being nothing since experiencing it would imply that it’s not nothing, and it’s impossible to experience everything, since in everything there is every experience and its opposite, and experiencing them simultaneously is the same as experiencing nothing at all.

But between those two “states”, you can experience one story, one linear or non-linear experience going from zero to infinity. That is what our role is. We are in a “dream”, but there is nothing outside of it. Or there is everything outside of it. Which is the same thing really. We are the only way that infinity can experience itself.

Of course, this is very conceptual and difficult to explain, since it goes beyond our human understanding. We can barely imagine the size of our solar system, much less that of our galaxy, our Universe, and thus, we are completely incapable of representing to ourselves what “infinity” is, in it’s TRUE form.

I’ll finish with an allegory, a metaphor, to help you understand what I am saying.

Imagine if all that ever existed is ONE single infinitely powerful quantum computer, which was asking itself always the same question: “WHO AM I”. The result of asking that question would consume the entire energy of the Universe it existed in, including the energy of the atoms/matter it was made of. However, the computational process of asking that question would inevitably recreate, inside of itself, a Universe identical to the one it was in, where it recreated itself as well. And from that “simulation”, it would ask the same question again. And that process, you can repeat into infinity. There is no start, there is no end. That ultrapowerful quantum computer could be seen as the ultimate future which will be “manifested” no matter what, and all the rest as an infinite alternate “stories” leading to the same point. We could be seen as the result of the thought process of that quantum computer, each human being a “sub thread” of the thinking process, having autonomy and agency, but inexorably leading back to manifesting that quantum computer. It’s like an open world game: you can do whatever you want in the game, fool around, have fun, but the “end boss” is there, waiting for you, for all eternity if necessary.

If you want to dive deeper into that kind of understanding of reality, you can find my writing here: https://medium.com/@marma.developer/my-spiritual-journey-3-the-nature-of-reality-abc06dc42c67?source=---------46------------------