Dear Mateo, I have the answers to your deep questioning. The short answer is that you are God. You are his eyes and ears, his feelings and thoughts. Thanks to you, God knows what it is like to loose faith. Think about it carefully. If God is the All, infinity, eternity, all of existence, past, present and future, then if he were to experience himself in that state it would be, to compare it to your own life, as if you experienced being born while dying, being hugged by your mother while having a gun pointed to your head, breaking your leg while having your first kiss. You are one very special and precious way for infinity to experience itself. That is all. It is that simple. God doesn’t punish anyone. God doesn’t ask anything. However, by following some “basic” platitudes like “love thy neighbor”, you act like God. If everything is God experiencing himself, then doing harm to something or someone is the same as if your right fist punched you in the stomach. It’s silly. If you want to know what God truly is, I can help. Sincerely, marma.